How about 500+ days of me?

So, I just saw 500 Days of Summer and it was definitely worth the 10 dollars I spent to see it. However, as a romantic failure I have to tell you, the movie has a way of ripping open old wounds. The main character Tom, is sweet and cynically funny throughout the movie. Summer is also a wonderful character, who I spent the entire movie wanting to hate. It's impossible to hate either of them though because both characters are just so painfully real. 

Don't read what I"m about to say if you have any intention of seeing the movie and like to be surprised.

At the end Tom runs into Summer at "his" spot over-looking the city. During their conversation Tom asks her how she could marry someone else when she had told him she never wanted to be in a relationship. This brought back old memories for me. This past year I had a friend I was head over heels for, tell me his ex-girlfriend, who he had been with for six years, still had his heart and he didn't know how to get it back. Those words still run through my mind from time to time, mocking me. I truly believed him and thought that was the reason he would never be with me. Not too long after, he started seeing someone. Apparently he had gotten his heart back. I wasn't as close to him as Tom was to Summer, but I still wish I could see my friend someday and ask him, why wasn't it me? I thought I had the question answered before I turned around one day and saw him kissing her. All my excuses shattered in a split second and I doubt I'll ever find the courage to ask why.

Anyway, I did laugh during the movie in spite of how depressed I may seem now. It's really a good movie and I'm pretty critical. So go see it and let me know if you're as romantically devastated as I am after seeing it. The actor who plays Tom is SO adorable though, he's grown into quite the man since his time on 3rd rock from the sun, and his part in 10 Things I Hate About You. So I'd like to ask him, as my title states, "How about 500+ days of me?" 

After the movie I really wanted to drive to the beach and lay on the sand (kind of a hobby of mine). However, being alone on a dark beach at night is a not-so-good idea but when I looked through my phone I didn't have anyone to invite. I could find someone to see a movie with or go out to eat, but I don't know anyone anymore who shares my love for staring into space. It's a lonely feeling.

Alright well, I think I've bummed myself out enough, and you, for one night. I'm on vacation from work this week, and tomorrow might be a beach day. Hooray! Beach days are always happy, right? We shall see.

Goodnight,

Farewell,

Sweet dreams.

-NC